I’m discerning consecrated virginity.
I’ve always been teased that I’d be a nun which I have mostly ignored because the teasing was mostly uninformed and were premature conclusions. Nonetheless, on the question of vocations, I really can’t imagine myself in marriage. I mean, I love children (well, I love seeing children), but that’s about where everything stops. I’d be lying if I said that I didn’t dream of romantic love, of someone holding me and paying attention to me and caring for me. I’d love to have someone who understands me. The problem is that I can’t imagine someone real doing that—no one except God. I don’t find it really pessimistic of me and since my association with guys is pretty limited, I really can’t say much of anything, but nonetheless, that’s something I hold as fact, something I consider almost indifferently instead of emotionally.
One of the biggest reasons for me to start discerning this vocation now though is that I’ve been increasingly aware of this one line of Matthew which is the title of this post, “He that can take, let him take it,” to which I have always responded in my mind, “I can take it.”
I’m trying to find out more about consecrated virginity, but the information is limited compared to other religious vocations. I’ve recently read Pope Pius VII’s Sacra Virginitas, but I’m afraid it’s only helped me a little. I should probably read it again. Of course, above all, I should be praying. I also ask that you pray for me that I come to the path that God desires me to be.
